Ready, Set.........GO!

A dear friend of mine used to say this when he was living, "Ready, set, go!" before doing anything big or small. He never liked just waiting around and got anxious when things dragged out too long. This is how I'm feeling right now.

We signed papers for purchasing our house this past Friday and will take possession of it on Thursday this week. It is so weird. I feel like I should be freaking out and thought I would have a lot more anxiety than I do. I guess that is another sign that this is the right move for us. we are really excited! Home-owning, I'm sure, is really stressful and a ton of work. But, I am pretty sure it's worth it not having to rent and having something that I can call "my own". The house is really really really gross, but with a bunch of Lysol & Clorox and new paint everywhere, it will be great! It's in Riverton and I am looking forward to getting to know that side of the valley. I have, my whole life, been an "east-sider" and am a little anxious about moving to the "west side" :), but at the same time, our neighborhood is really great and very safe according to the neighbors! We are very pleased with how everyone pretty much in the neighborhood keeps up their lawn and makes the street look very pleasant...see how bratty I am?

I will post pictures of the before/after clean up later next week probably. We are planning on moving in the house a little into September we think...after the painting is done. Then, we can focus on a lot of other little things in the house as we go.

Yay for only renting for 1/2 a month more!!!

I Got the Giggles

Tonight, before bedtime, we had Sammy on the floor after we just changed his bum for the night. He was looking up at me and I couldn't help it...I started kissing him all over {fast} his face {ears, lips, cheeks, nose, forehead}. He started giggling so hard that he got red in the face. So, of course I kept doing it because his giggle is so cute! Rob tried doing it, too, and Sam laughed...but not as hard as when I did it {smile}. Then, I started doing it to his tummy and he laughed even harder. I stopped after a couple minutes of it because he had just had his night bottle and I didn't want it ending up on me if ya know what I mean.

Here are some looks of other things that bring out the giggles :)

Sammy's "Blue Steel"

I'm sorry, I had to throw this one in here. We threw my friend Paula a "Bachelorette
Party" before she got married and her face is priceless pulling her gift out.
Gets me ever time...sorry Paula ~ couldn't resist! :) Love ya!

This doesn't seem like it's funny. But, the story behind this picture is funny.
I changed this picture to Black & White and then blew it up and framed it
on my wall in the living room. Everyone that came into our house had to ask me why
I had a picture of that on my wall...I guess they all though I had
framed a picture of a boob...go figure. My aunt from California said she was really
proud of me for displaying a piece of art like that which expresses my body.
Lol. It's a Calilily.

Gotta love this one...he's such a nerfherder...but, I love him :)

Is Forever Enough?

Isn't it an interesting thing how God works? He allows pain and sorrow for a short time and then pours out his love when we least expect it. Yesterday was such an emotional hard core day for me. Today was just the opposite. Sam and I had such a great morning filled with playing and giggling. We are working on the screaming-when-mommy-takes-something-away thing and it is coming. I had to go to work so my cousin Kirsten and her little girl, B, watched him. I love it when I go and pick him up~ he sees me and reaches out for me and doesn't let me go :) I loved it. After we got home and met Daddy, we went on a walk and played and then after getting into jammies, he passed out on me {without the binky} on my chest. It was the most adorable thing ever. Totally cancels out yesterday. Period.

I heard a song that I totally forgot about until this morning. I had on an episode of Medium on Netflix in the background of getting ready for the day. The song "Lullaby" by Dixie Chicks was played throughout the episode. I had it gloriously stuck in my head today and found myself humming it throughout work and then I hummed it to Sam while he fell asleep on me. I love it soo much! Such an adorable song and meaning. Here is the link to it on YouTube...listen to it, it's amazing! I think my mom has it, so I'm going to steal it off of her compy. Here are the lyrics...they are so goose pimply :)

They didn't have you where I come from
Never knew the best was yet to come
Life began when I saw your face
And I hear your laugh like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

I slip in bed when you're asleep
To hold you close and feel your breath on me
Tomorrow there'll be so much to do
So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

As you wander through this troubled world
In search of all things beautiful
You can close your eyes when you're miles away
And hear my voice like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved

Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

Here is my zen picture of the day ~

The Dirty Look

You know that look that mothers get when their child is being way loud or out of control? We all have given that look. I hope I haven't too much...I usually look the way the screaming is coming from and then think in my head, "Come on - can't you control your child?"

Ahem, well, God has taught me a great lesson today and I am pretty sure I will never give the look again. Rob and I decided to go to our new ward today and make ourselves known and hopefully make friends with people. Sacrament meeting started at 11:00 a.m. and as we were singing the opening hymn, Sam decided to scream at the top of his lungs out of rage because Rob wouldn't let him play with the hymnal. {He has been doing this the past few days and it has really gotten on my nerves. I never was looking forward to pointless screaming like this...and I never expected it so young. Needless to say, I have been feeling really overwhelmed the past few days with this personality change.} Anyway, my hand instantly flew to cover his mouth and my head shot up instinctively to see if anyone was looking {I was raised to protect my image...weird, I know} and a girl over to my left was giving me the stare down with the look. It took me by surprise and then I instantly felt shame and guilt! All the memories of me thinking "why can't you control you child?" came through my head and I felt the judgement in me. It was awefull! I also instantly remembered my Dad in church always complaining when we sat next to certain families whose kids were typically loud. I felt his judgement as well...and that was awefull too! Holy crap. I pretty much cried the entire length of sacrament meeting and then was ok until we left and then cried all the way home and then some. I was overwhelmed and Rob could see that so he offered to pray in the car before we went up to our condo {I was feeling so overwhelmingly horrible about myself.} Later tonight he gave me a blessing and I have been feel pretty ok about things. I just knew I needed to get this off my chest.

Lessons I learned:

1. It's really easy for the adversary to get into your head once you're already down
about yourself.
2. Don't Judge people! Judgement is only the job of the Savior's so keep your
thoughts and feelings at bay!
3. Moms need support! Thank you to Laurel who answered some questions and gave
me her opinion on how to handle my little guy when he freaks out {like most babies do}.
4. Don't take what your kids do personally. They love you and they are just kids.
5. I am going to try my hardest to not care what others think about me...

Yes, I have been overly emotional lately {and no I'm not pregnant}. But, this totally caught me out of the blue. I love my little guy so much, but lately I've been thinking "it would be so nice if it were just me and Rob again" and I hate thinking that sooo soo much! I miss alone time with Rob and I miss it being just us sometimes, but I could never give up Sam to have that again. Whoever first said that Motherhood is hard should be shot because that is such an understatement!

Blast From the Past

A friend of mine on Facebook (Lindsay) got me thinking of what I was doing

in the year 2004...here are a couple stats:

Age: 17
Favorite Color: Blue
Favorite Band(s): Shania, Celine Dion, Tim McGraw, Dishwalla
Lived: East Millcreek
Crushing On :) Let's see...Preston, David, and I think Jimmy were that year. Wow
was I pathetic. Luckily I had moved from the hobbit stage.
Favorite class: Probably Choir with my friends & AP English
Favorite Book: The Heavenly Surrender (I went through a major romance phase)
Favorite Pastime: Chillin' with the Untouchables...heckling
Favorite Quote: There are many...but Jordan Hilton said it best, "Dude, there's
a booger on your face." Joey Cardenas: "Shutup" (as he wipes it off).

It's weird to think that 2004 was 7 years ago.
And that now I'm here....

I met Rob...

I married Rob...

We got pregnant...

...and had little Twinkle Toes here.

Life has thrown some really tough challenges along our way, but the journey has been
so much fun! I am excited to look back in another 7 years and see
how our lives have changed. Well, excited and sad a little because I know it will come way too
fast.

"Life is what you make it"

...And So Are the Gilmores of Our Lives...

I just found out that we have 8 followers! Yay! I'm gonna get my act together and start bogging again. I feel pretty zen when I blog, and it would be a great night cap every once in a while before bed (or while the little monster is asleep).

A few things to mention:

1. Rob got notice of his being laid-off (April)
2. Rob got laid off (June)
3. Rob found a job and started the day after he was let go (June)
plus got a 2 week severance, plus free insurance for July, plus never missed
a day's work...very blessed!
4. We looked at a house to buy in Riverton (July 15)
5. Saw Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows, Part 2 (epic)
6. Decided to buy the house we saw!
7. We close in 2 weeks!
8. Sam is barking like a dog, meowing like a kitty, an roaring like a tiger :)

Here are a few pics to catch up on...again sorry for not posting in a while!

This picture above is from the Heber Valley Demolition Derby that Rob & I went to at the end of July. It was awesome! They had two rollovers this year which was fun to see...Rob wants to be a driver in it sometime, but I have said no.

Sammy & Daddy

We love to go swimming at our condo complex's pool which is pretty fun on these warm summer nights! Sam loves the water!

Cute face!

I will have more to post in the next few days. Today was just my re-arranging of the blog and then I took the time to arrange photos so they will be more accessible on my compy. Until next time...Ciao!

"The whale was just toying with us. She was swatting us with her tail and hosing us down with her blowhole because that is the whale's M.O. - humiliate and rip apart every other fish in the sea until there's nothing left but a bloody pile of chum."